Hey Well I just thought I would update* I just got done watchin 7th Heaven it wasnt too good of an episode im like addicted to that show and it only has a few more episodes i dunno what imma do without it* Well lately school has been better i guess.. not so bad*Family life is ok*Except for the mornings.*> but hey gotta live with it tho* I have been thinkin alot lately and i have decided that i really do love him no matter what people say im sure i always will* Its just not easy too* I dunno maybe its dumb but ya gotta take chances to get somewhere..I downloaded this song which im so totally in love with*Its called So Sick* Its greta everyone should download it* I know this is a really boring update but i Dont have anything else to do.. not alot has been going on lately.. Every day i have been staying home and doing nothing but sit here and think about stuff that makes me cry I dunno .. i guess thats really stupid but hey i have nothing better to do..All i ever do is write poems or songs anymore.. I dunno I guess I just like expressing my feelings and thats the only way I can and thats by singing em or writin em down...YEa people should be happy that they have a life*..I dunno nothing just seems the same anymore.. I guess it could just be me..But im just used to so much i guess someone spoiled me all the time* It just seems my life is crappy.. but maybe everyone thinks that too.. but who really knows..Sometimes I just get scared for no reason .. or i just get chills because I think to much.. not alot is going on .. so my mind is always full of stuff.. I dunno i guess im just still filled pain..I know i am .. or I wouldnt be like this.. its just really hard.. most people will know what Im talking about.. well they should.. Life can get you down i guess.. but its up to you to help yourself up.. and im def. not doing a good job at that.. I think i just bring my self down more.. but what does that matter its not like I mean anything to anyone* Sometimes I really do wish I had good friends .. like the best friend you talk to almost everyday ..that you can tell all of ur secrets too and that would support you no matter what but ya know i really dont have that.. no one would even take the time* they prolly wouldnt believe me anyways.. oh well I guess I better go finish my homework.. gotta make up some questions for brit..*.cya*COrt*

I love you*

So SIck*

Mmmm mmm yeah
Do do do do do do do-do
Ohh Yeah

Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cuz right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cuz you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger then this
(enough is enough)
No more walkin round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Cryin over you

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calender I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Dont make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
Let it go
Turning off the radio

Cuz I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

Said I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishin you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Why can't I turn off the radio?

Ya ever feel like you don't belong and all you need is someone to be there for  you*

Because I do too*