In my own world..

Hey.*.

2006-07-02T18:01:42Z

I figured I would come by and update*.. I went to Tenn. for a week .. so I havent really been on here much*.. Me and Josh broke up the other day .. We really werent right for each other.. but its all good* lol.. I got a new guy in mind*..I went camping friday and we still are.. i just came home for a lil while to shower and stuff.. well I gtg
leave me some comments*
<3*
-*-Cortney_...

Hey-*-

2006-06-20T23:19:16Z

Just thought I would come by and update* EVerything has been really different lately and Me and JOsh aren't Doing too Good.*. I haven't talked to him in like week..And It RlY sucks big time*..and I don't really feel like typin anymore cya*
-Cort-*-

& she pretends she doesn't care; but really she cares [more] than anyone else EVER would.

--> As soon as U get online Whose Name Do U look for First? When a SLOW song comes on the RADIO Whose Face comes to Ur Mind First? When U hear Ur phone Ringing Who Do U HOPE it is calling? Whose NAME Makes Ur Stomach DROP WHen U Hear it? U know...<3

Hey*

2006-06-13T22:33:40Z

Hey well I just thought I would come by and update* Man the past few days have been really boring and I really don't get to talk to Josh that much..When one of us have sumthin to do then the other has sumthin to do the next nite ..its like we hardly ever talk.. or it seems like it to me. But I really love him more than anything and I guess I am just gonna have to wait and see how everything turns out..I even invited him to go camping with me this weekend but of course he had other plans..I don't know maybe I am being selfish or something I would just really like to spend time or talk to my boyfriend. But everyone has other things they half to do .. but he always does..I don't mean to seem like im raggin on him but I just really get tired. I mean it really hurts when we don't talk for a major amount of time, but I'd rather be with him .. than without him.. When we are together its just so perfect I don't know how to explain it..but it hardly ever happens.But oh well.. enough about my sad complaints..lol
Lately everything has been good I guess I went to Tenn. for awhile to get my mind off somethings and it really helped. It got me thinkin to some good things. We finally got our pool up and I went swimming the other day with my cousins it was fun. This week Im not doing anything.. mite go out sometime..so if anyone wants to do anything just let me know comment or sumthing*..well I gtg*
.*.L.e.a.v.e..m.e..s.o.m.e..l.o.v.e.*.
-Cort.
*Cort-n-Josh*

..Hidy

2006-06-04T23:47:42Z

-*-Hey guys I just thought I would come by and update since I was so bored*. There is never anything to do around here..Well to start off with my Weekend.*.

Friday*- I waited for Josh to call all day then I went to the movies with Josh and we watched Over the Hedge.*. It was a really cute lil movie*Then we talked for a bit and then I went home..And then Called Josh and talked to him like forever.*.

Saturday*- I got up at 2 and then went to my mams for breakfast/lunch lol*..Then I came home and we still had no water cause our pump had sumthing wrong with it ..so Then me and my sister went to my aunts house and took a shower and got my cousins and went out* We went to shannon's and cruisin and movie starz*. It was a lot of fun* Then we came home and watched a movie that was really good*

Today*-I got up early and my mom had fixed a big breakfast and then me and my cousins sat around for awhile and watched t.v. Then Nick called and asked me to spend the nite but I don't think Im going too.*. He also asked me to go to the zoo with him Friday but Im not sure yet if Im going to go* Then nick came up and I sat around with him for awhile and then a peacock walked up the road it was cool lol*. Then Nick left to go fishing and I watched t.v. and then went and ate up my mams house*Then I came back down the house and pretty much here I am*

-*-Well my weekend was pretty good and it seemed so long lol*..Chas is suppose to be comin back from tenn. tomm. but then they will prolly go back soon*. I hope this week isn't gonna be borin ..I think I might go do some shopping lol* Josh has been stayin at his aunt's So I really haven't got to talk to him that much . which really sux.. I mean the distance we have now is long enough* but I guess its all good* I will see him sumtime this week .. or I should*..If I don't imma be really mad .*. Well my life is going pretty good* Im just so glad there is no school*My friends are good* I really need to talk to more of them over the summer cause I lose touch to a lot of ppl*..My love life is pretty great as you can tell.*. Josh is the best..lol ( I have a pic of him on my comp. if anyone hasn't seen him yet) but I guess imma go fix up a few things*
-*-ta ta-*-
--Cort--

*Cortney Lynn and Joshua Wayne- 4 eva and always*
.-*-t.e.x.t..m.e.s.s.a.g.e..l.o.v.e-*-.

Hey*

2006-05-28T05:27:50Z

Hey guys just thought I would come by and update..well break has been really good I guess ..well the gettin out of school part..I got my last report card today and it had a C on it and I was so mad ..She told me I had a B and then she went and changed it....oh well.. sem is wat really counts anyways..this week has been good, I went out a lot and had tons of fun..but I didn't get to see Josh.. He's gone to pigeon fordge with his family..but he will be back Monday..thank god cause I am already going crazy not talking to him.We are doing a lot better now which I am so glad because I really love him ..I mean really love him...he is a really great guy..I know I mite seem werid about it.. but I really love him so much ..he means the world to me. Me and my family are going somewhere on vac. but im not sure where yet..but we were talking about it..I can't wait I love getting away and doing stuff with my family. Today was pretty good day Me, my sis, and my mom got up and went to whitesburg and I got a new shirt and I bought Nick a little golf set. Then we came home and me, my sis, and my mam went and got our pics made and then I came home and we went out to the camp ground and stayed for a long time to see nick and them. Then came home and went up Chas's house and went swimming for a lil bit and then played poker and watched the pistons..and that pretty much leads to now..and I really miss Josh..and im tired so imma go*
cya*
-Cort~

-*-Cortney Lynn ~N~ Joshua Wayne-*-4-15-06

Hey*

2006-05-15T22:49:32Z

Today makes one month.*.!! I love you Josh.*.
*4-15-06*

--*Weekend

2006-05-14T00:04:35Z

Well I really haven't updated in awhile so I decided that I would come by and update..Well this week was ok we had an sol in Geometry and I made a 529 so thats not too bad.. we also had awards day friday but I didn't get anythin but my sister got alot...Well Friday I went to the movies with Josh and we saw An AMerican Haunting or sumthing like that.. it was ok movie but I had a really good time.. Me n JOsh havent really been doing so great and we finally talked about everything and got it all worked out which Im really glad because I really love him so much..SO I think that we are just fine now.. He got a new job and it really doesnt give him much time for anything..so that really made everything worse...I do still have a lil problem but i will just have to try and figure that out for myself..lol.. Man im so confused..today was good I went out to whitesburg and got a few things and we got some flowers for my Grans grave and we are going to take them up there tomm. We are getting my mom a new grill and something else for mothers day.. I can't wait till tomm.. we are going to have dinner at my mams and the whole fam should be ther lol this friday is my sister's graduation and then the next day we are havin a cookout for her and both sides of my fam are suppose to be ther..oh gosh ..haha..well i guess i gtg
-Cort*

Ya ever want a boy who will just buy you flowers just because its tuesday*

Ya ever love him and love him and you just cant choose*

Hey*

2006-05-03T00:24:43Z

.*.Hey guys just thought I would leave a small update..since I have nothing else to do.Im waiting on Josh to get home but it seems like it is taking him forever..I just hardly ever get to talk to him and long distance is really hard..ya have no idea, but we are gonna make it work I just know it..I really love him so much, its crazy Sat was our 2 weeks but we went out Friday for it.. I love bein with him it just makes me feel so happy. He is such a great guy and Im so darn lucky to have him.*.Well Im going to go cause Im waiting on a phone call.*.
Cort-n-Josh*

.*.Every Second Im not with you I miss you more and more.*.

..Hey..

2006-04-23T02:17:10Z

Omg guys..This has been the best nite of my life ever..Me and Josh went out to the movies and I had so much fun*
It was so awesome we saw Ice Age 2 the meltdown*..I just had so much fun bein with him*
Josh-Bein at the movies tonite..has really made me think about how lucky I am to have you. You are the bestest ever and I love you so much*..I had so much fun just bein with you. I loved our holding hands and I loved how you keep kissing my arms lol..Tonite was just so perfect I couldn't even imagine a better nite..Everytime that I looked into your eyes, I just couldn't stop you are my everything. I never want to be without you. Our first kiss was so amazing and tonite was nothing less. Josh I love you so much, you mean everything to me.Im really glad you got to meet my parents because they really like you. I love you so much.*.
Tonite was prom and I didn't get to go see everyone walk in because I went to the movies with Josh which I so totally loved it as you can tell. He is just so amazing ya guys have no idea.Well imma go talk to my man*
-Cort

.*.Cort-n-Josh 4-ever.*.

*

2006-04-20T03:04:02Z

I love to see you smile
And I love knowing that I caused that smile
I love to see you happy
And I love knowing that I caused that happiness

I love to look into your beautiful eyes
And I love the way I fall into them
I love it when you hold my hand
And I love having the courage to grab and hold yours

I love to tease and torment you
And I love it when you tease and torment me
I love it when you touch me
And I love to touch you

I love rediscovering how beautiful you are each time I see you
And I love realizing how attractive you make me feel
I love wanting so badly to kiss you
And I love the way you want to take things slow

I love the fact that you still want to be my friend
And I love that I want to be yours
But most of all
I love that your you*

Hey guys just thought I would come by and update since I am so totally bored.. Shew I never have anything to do.. oh well lets see I have been doing good. Me and Josh have been ok lately.. He is the bestest ever.. and so sweet even though we did have our first arguement last nite.. :( ..so that wasn't fun but its over with now..So that's good I only got to talk to him a lil bit today cause he went out.. no time for me today..oh well .. but I called some ppl to get my mind off of talkin to him.. and I did some homework even though It was really hard well I thought so..But I can't wait till Friday me and Josh are going to the movies.. We better or imma be so mad lol.. Not sure what we are gonna see yet tho lol.. Well Im tired and I gotta get up early so Im going to go*
love ya lots*
Cortney-

*Cort -n- Josh*

(oh yeah I wrote that up there lol)(omg DId you guys see Chris GO up On American IDOL urgghh Im so mad hes the best ever!!!!!!)

cortney_08 @ 2006-04-15T18:34:00

2006-04-15T22:41:03Z

It's kind of crazy
I have all these feelings inside
But I got to say baby
Bein with you seems so right

Every other day I find myself
Wishin you were here
wishin you were near
Im out of mind
Im going insane
How can all this
feel like pain
I wanna be yours....

I can breathe
I can see
what's wrong with me
Why won't you take the time
Just to be
with me
Thats all I really need...

Because Every other day
I find myself
Wishin you were here
wishin you were near
Im out of mind
Im going insane
How can all this
feel like pain
I wanna be yours....
I wanna be yours.....
Today
Tommorrow
for the rest of my life
I wanna be yours
So you'll hold me tight
Is that so much
that I have to ask

Because I can breathe
I can see
what's wrong with me
Why won't you take the time
Just to be
with me
Thats all I really need...

Thats a song I wrote awhile ago*I just had to update and tell ya about what happened.I met this guy and we started talkin and now we are datin im so happy. This is like the best day ever in my life. He is so sweet and he means the world to me, and I hope he knows that. We stayed up talkin on the phone forever last nite and it was so great, im so glad that I met him and I don't think I could have found any better guy in this world.
Joshua Wayne Ridings<3 .*.4-15-06.*.2:48 a.m.

cortney_08 @ 2006-04-13T22:13:00

2006-04-14T02:39:13Z

Hey guys just thought I would come by and update since I was bored. I am so glad we are finally on spring break, even thought we only have five days and thats including the weekend but hey at least we get some.
Yesterday was fun we went to the college MECC for some career thing and we ate at dairy queen..which was fun and I sat with Jasmine on the bus and we caught up on a few things..Life has been crazy for the past month or so.But Im glad she finally found someone that is good to her.. He sounds really sweet*.But anyways.. we didn't get back to school till like 3:40 which sucked because alot of ppl missed thier buses so they got excused from doing their homework lol..But after that I came home and went with Chas to get her hair cut and it looks really cute..Im going to dye mine soon to a Sandy color..but Im waiting for summer in case it looks awful and I have to change it lol..Tomm. I have to get up early and go to work with Mom so thats gonna suck but then we are going to go out and get me some new clothes and stuff for Easter..Which is gonna be so much fun*.. Then IM going to the movies more than likely too see Scary Movie 4..And thats pretty much it*
Friends*
As for friends we are doing pretty good..I have made alot of new ones and I have lost alot but it all equals out I guess..Me and Charity have had alot of fites but I guess we are still friends.. Me and Jasmine have came alot closer I think .and to one of my new bestest friends Melissa she's the best lol*We have some really good times haha* especially in Gym Class.
But hey Ya gotta love your friends*
GUys*
Well what Can I say* I met a new guy..Yess! lol..And he is so great*and sweet and all the other things* I can't even describe him*He does live a little far away but I really hope this works out*He is just the sweetest* and I really like him alot..I dunno there is just sumthin about him that gives me butterflies.*.So wish me luck* I <3 you hun*
Family*
We are all doing good.. I can't wait until Sunday when I get to see most of them..Its gonna be lots of fun*Happy Early Easter everyone lol*
Well I guess that pretty much sums it all up*
-Cortney

Its not about what you do in life that matters its about who you are*

cortney_08 @ 2006-04-07T23:41:00

2006-04-08T04:03:25Z

Have ya ever met a guy and he seemed so great. Well Im sure you have but won't admit it.Well I did and I even started likin him alot. And ever since the first time I heard him on the phone and heard his voice, I miss him every second of my life. I knew I found someone special.Even though I barely even know him, I still have really strong feelings for him.And now every time my phone rings, I get excited but the truth is it's hardly ever him. He tells me he's going to call me later but he hardly ever does.Im not sure if I am suppose to take that as a rejection or what. But he calls ever now and then and acts just fine. He has even called me a Ass but for some reason I don't even care, I like him too much. But I don't know how to tell him about how I feel.I wouldn't call it love not just yet, but it's definatly a crush. Although we just started talking,I really think we click, He seems to really understand me and hes exactly the kind that makes me tick. He makes me smile and laugh, I never knew this would happen but it's really kind of nice but I'm taking it slow this time.Cause my heart's been broken once. But that still doesn't mean that I don't wanna try with him.Sometimes I get caught up and I get nervous when we talk and I feel like I could cry when he's away. I have these feelings, deep inside feelings that I have to hide, I don't know if he feels that way too And I don't know what to do.It's like I can be speechless and stare at nothing 'cause im just so amazed that I found this incredible person. I think bein with him would be my dream because everyone is someone's dream and this kinda of certainty comes, but once in a lifetime.<3
*Leave some comments*
*Randoms*

School is almost out.Yess!!!!
Degrassi was new tonite*.. I love that show its the best*
I really want to talk to him*
My room is a mess.
Jealous?
Aww Boo~~(you scared me lol)~~
I love you*Spanish and French*
I wanted to f'in take a picture*

cortney_08 @ 2006-03-29T19:17:00

2006-03-30T00:30:41Z

Hey guyes I just thought I would come by and update since I haven't in a long time*.. Not too much is going on.. it seems my life is so dull.. all I ever do is get up go to school then come home and do my homework and then over and over again...Well I didn't go to school yesterday or today.. I have the flu and it really sucks.. i went to the doctor today and he told me to stay home tomm. But I really need to go tomm. So I will prolly end up going.. or at least my last two classes..I can't wait till we get out of school.. its killin me.. Shew I have no tatse so like everything I eat is like rubber .. urgh.. hopefully it will go away soon. I took my temp. earlier and it was 101.0 ..so thats not good.. but its going down now.. I think its only 100.0..lol Yeah I know this is a really boring update.. but oh well.. My ol friend from Florida is in and hopefully I will get to see him before he goes back..

GUys_*
Well I dont have a boyfriend right now.. but I do like someone. .but Im not too sure if they like me .. but Im going to find out soon.. lol.. BUt I hope everything will go good..
Friends_*
Well I got some.. Some good .. some not.. and some that act so stuck up and hang with snotty ppl.. but it's all good.. at least I know I have a few good ones..
School_*
Well All I can really say .. is that I can't wait till its over ..lol*..

Well I guess Im gonna go get on Icq ..cause Alex said he needed to talk to me about something.. and he sounded really serious.. so I Hope nothing is wrong or anything like that*...welp cya
-Cort*.
Relationships are like racing, when you do it for love you've already won!

Hey*

2006-03-22T00:41:58Z

Not sure why Im updatein but Im really bored and I got a new layout.. its not as pretty as I thought It would be but oh well.. I'll get a new one later.. Im just to lazy to fix it.. I dunno why I even bother.. its not like anyone reads it or leaves me comments.. Today was actually pretty good.. some kids had a fieldtrip so we did nothing all day* and thats always a plus.!!My life has been ok I guess not the best but hey im alive..I really like this guy and im just not sure if its gonna.. well im not sure if he is gonna give me a chance.. but I guess it will work out for the best or I hope so.. well Imma go download a few songs..*.oh yeah.. Jasmine's pap died so keep her family in your prayers*.. Im sry Jas I love ya lots* well I guess I better go*
Cort*
.*.If I don't cry Do you think I don't feel If I look away
Doesn't mean I don't see And just because I want
Someone when I'm alone Doesn't mean I'm helpless
That I can't stand on my own How strong do you think I am
How much can I take of this Am I a rock or a rose or a fist
Or the breath at the end of a kiss How deep do you wanna go
'Cause I'll go there if I can You make it harder than it has to be,
how strong do you think i am .*.

Hey :)

2006-03-10T17:42:19Z

Hey guys just thought I would come by and update since I havent in awhile* Yeah I know im suppose to be in school right now.. but Kim came and got me cause I have this really big headache that is killin me*..So right now I am sitting at the office on Kim's computer ..and Im really bored too*lol..but anyways I better go *
love ya*
Cortney*

Hey*

2006-03-03T03:37:11Z

Hey guys just thought I would come and update for this weekend. Not alot has been happenin lately* I went to school today then I went and got my hair cut .. like shoulder length I guess.. but I think it looks ok* but then I went home and Chas asked me to go to Tenn. with her .. so for the weekend I'll be gone to Tenn. I know everyone will miss me haha* prolly not but its all good*.. but Im really bored and people told me to come by and update.. so here ya go*.. Imma take a bunch of pics this weekend.. cause I feel like it lol.. so i might post some or just put them on my photobucket who knows*. I was suppose to go to the movies this weekend but ahh I just decided i would get away for awhile* It might be good for me cause I have been stressing lately on stupid things..especially guys* and I know they sux lol
well I guess imma go* I'll update when I come home* And I want lots of COMMENTS* lol.. but that prolly won't happen I never get too many * but imma go im tired*
Cort*<3

"Your Eyes"

If I was drowning in the sea
Would you dive right in and save me?
If I was falling like a star
Would you be right there to catch me?
If I was dreaming of your kiss
Would you look right through me?

On the street I'm waiting
In my heart it's raining

Your eyes are holding up the sky
Your eyes make me weak, I don't know why
Your eyes make me scared to tell the truth
I thought my heart was bullet-proof
Now I'm dancing on the roof
And everybody knows I'm into you

If my heart was sadder than a song
Would you still listen?
If my tears fell on you, one by one
Would you see them glisten?

On the street I'm waiting
In my heart it's raining

Your eyes are holding up the sky
Your eyes make me weak I don't know why
Your eyes make me scared to tell the truth
I thought my heart was bullet-proof
Now I'm just dancing on the roof

Every single thing you say makes me want to run away
Sometimes love's a rainy day but life goes on

Your eyes are holding up the sky
Your eyes make me weak, I don't know why
Your eyes make me scared to tell the truth
I thought my heart was bullet-proof
But I'm dancing on the roof
And everybody knows I'm into you

That's my song to him* my special someone* I <3 you*

Hey *

2006-02-26T00:04:48Z

Hey guys just thought I would come by and update.. Yesterday was so freakin fun* well I went to school which was def not the fun part lol*.. but after school me,paula,and my sister went bowling and we had a blast* It was so funny I got like 5 strikes yay go me* lol I still came in 2nd the first time and I came in 3rd the last time lol..but then we went to eat..then when I came home I got on icq for a little bit.. then got on the phone and talked like all night it was so much fun* lol *~~STICKWITU~~ * but anyways today I got up and went to littons to look at prom dresses with my sister and paula they had some really cute ones too* then we went to eat and fashion bug and I saw someone I did not want to see..lol.. but oh well and thats pretty much it but I need plans for the rest of this weekend and nextr but I think we might go bowling again so thats gonna be fun lol* welp imma go call someone lol*
ml*
Cort.*.

Hey*

2006-02-21T23:01:26Z

Hey guys just thought I would come by and update*.. Today was an ok day I guess.. nothing really happened..but I got a C in geometry I figured I'd be in trouble but I didnt.. but i gotta pull it up to a B!!.. Just thought I would post this*
There was a time
when i could only see
me...
through your eyes...

Then come the day
you went away
and i couldn't see me
anymore...

Now time has passed
I have found me
I was wrong all along
I didn't need your eyes to see...

Other love has come and gone
and I have walked away
untouched, unmoved, deadened
my heart just couldn't see past ..

Welp I guess imma go cause im bored and I got to get off for awhile*..
Cort*

.*.Relationships are like racing, when you do it for love you've already won.*.

>*.And now I wonder,
as my heart freezes cold,
was seeing me through your eyes
better than an eternity alone? .*.

Hey

2006-02-18T23:36:27Z

Hey guys just thought I should come bye and update since I havent since V-day*..It snowed and its like so totally cold and I have nothing to do*.. Last nite I went to bed at 12 sumthing and this morning I woke up at 3.. which rly isn't the morning lol.. but oh well..This will prolly be the last snow we have ... I just can't wait till summer and when we get out of school..I hate school its so boring lol.. But I have been really confused lately about everything.. One day Im happy the next im sad and I dunno I think im just gettin over everything for like the 4th time but who knows.. I guess today im not in so good of a mood .. I went to see my lil cousin and he wanted to come home with me but it was snowin so he had to stay home. I love that kid to death.lol..but then I came home and I have been sitting in my room listen to music and its prolly wat imma do the rest of the day too lol.*.nothing better to do.. dont have anyone to be with and to talk to .. And I think thats why I have been so down lately.. but hopefully I will find someone soon* well I guess Imma go and listen to some music*
love ya guys,
Cort.*.
*YOUR ONLY AS STRONG AS YOU ARE WEAK*

Valentines day*

2006-02-15T02:35:33Z

Valentine's day oh yes and how many valentines do I have this year hmm 3 maybe lol*

Love ya all*

Cort

Hey*

2006-02-12T05:46:56Z

Hey its only a few more days till Valentines Day and I have no one to spend it with* Which kinda sux..And my lj is like all screwed up but I will fix it one day when I have time* but i just thought I would put this on here .. if ya want ya can fill it out*

This is the Be My Valentine Application. Everyone knows theres at least one person that you want to be your Valentine.Heres a chance just to fill this out*
Who wants to be my valentine lol*

Name:

Age:

Height:

Do you Drive:

Are u a virgin:

drugs/drink/smoke:

School:

Grade:

eye color:

Single or Taken:

Would You Date Me:

Kiss On First Date:

Do you think I am Good Looking?

Do you know me?

If No, do you wish you knew me?

If yes, on a scale of 1-10:

Do you really want to be my Valentine?

Rate my looks on 1-10!

Rate your looks on 1-10!

Would you.....

Lie to me?

Hurt me?

Hug me/Kiss me in front of everyone?

Hold my hand?

Introduce me to your parents?

Play wrestle with me?

Love me?

Call me just to say hey?

cuddle with me?

help me with homework?

listen to me when i need to talk?

never drag me on?

kiss me always?

suprise me?

where would you take me on the first date?

if we already went on a date where was it?

do you want to be with me?

Hey*

2006-02-07T02:29:32Z

Hey Well I just thought I would update* I just got done watchin 7th Heaven it wasnt too good of an episode im like addicted to that show and it only has a few more episodes i dunno what imma do without it* Well lately school has been better i guess.. not so bad*Family life is ok*Except for the mornings.*> but hey gotta live with it tho* I have been thinkin alot lately and i have decided that i really do love him no matter what people say im sure i always will* Its just not easy too* I dunno maybe its dumb but ya gotta take chances to get somewhere..I downloaded this song which im so totally in love with*Its called So Sick* Its greta everyone should download it* I know this is a really boring update but i Dont have anything else to do.. not alot has been going on lately.. Every day i have been staying home and doing nothing but sit here and think about stuff that makes me cry I dunno .. i guess thats really stupid but hey i have nothing better to do..All i ever do is write poems or songs anymore.. I dunno I guess I just like expressing my feelings and thats the only way I can and thats by singing em or writin em down...YEa people should be happy that they have a life*..I dunno nothing just seems the same anymore.. I guess it could just be me..But im just used to so much i guess someone spoiled me all the time* It just seems my life is crappy.. but maybe everyone thinks that too.. but who really knows..Sometimes I just get scared for no reason .. or i just get chills because I think to much.. not alot is going on .. so my mind is always full of stuff.. I dunno i guess im just still filled pain..I know i am .. or I wouldnt be like this.. its just really hard.. most people will know what Im talking about.. well they should.. Life can get you down i guess.. but its up to you to help yourself up.. and im def. not doing a good job at that.. I think i just bring my self down more.. but what does that matter its not like I mean anything to anyone* Sometimes I really do wish I had good friends .. like the best friend you talk to almost everyday ..that you can tell all of ur secrets too and that would support you no matter what but ya know i really dont have that.. no one would even take the time* they prolly wouldnt believe me anyways.. oh well I guess I better go finish my homework.. gotta make up some questions for brit..*.cya*COrt*

I love you*

So SIck*

Mmmm mmm yeah
Do do do do do do do-do
Ohh Yeah

Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cuz right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cuz you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger then this
(enough is enough)
No more walkin round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Cryin over you

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calender I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Dont make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
Let it go
Turning off the radio

Cuz I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

Said I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishin you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Why can't I turn off the radio?

Ya ever feel like you don't belong and all you need is someone to be there for you*

Because I do too*

Hey...

2006-02-01T02:38:06Z

Well what can I say nothing really..everything pretty much sux in my life..Nothing good is happenin.. everyone I liked has turned into sumthing I just can't take..I just don't know anymore.. everything is just so messed up I never thought everything would get this bad.. Everyone has been telling me thats its gonna get worse before its good..But thats prolly true.. but im sick of it..Im sick of all my friends turnin on me and sayin all this shit about me..I say just screw everything because nothing is working out for me anymore..I really thought this was gonna be good at first and now it really sux. I just really don't know what to say..Im in some deep crap I guess.. and I don't really have anyone to talk to about it.. Well no one that will actually listen..People are too stuck up in their everyday lives.. but i dont blame them cause I never have time to do anything either between homework and school I barely have time to myself.. I hate school I mean yeah ya learn but what the heck.. Why does it take up your whole dang life.. I wish I could find sumthing to do besides write stupid songs.. because thats all I have been doing since like june or july and my computer space is filled ..I just feel so stressed because of school and im sick of doing the same ol thing all the time.. And im sick of guys that are dumb and immature.. dont guys just know how to be nice to a girl.. well at least they could try to be.. but I guess thats too much to ask of one..Im sure many will agree..Yeah most people are like whats the deal with sobbing about your life .. cause ya dont live long have fun.. yeah but the only problem is I dont know how.. I guess my first real relationship ruined my whole life.. because everything I had in that is what I want but ya just cant get that from anyone it seems... yeah im still young and it is kinda nice to be single.. but im not used to being free all the time.. I was always busy.. and just to be bored all the time just doesnt seem right at all...Some people might not know what im talkin about.. but I know some do..All ya ever do is cry .. ya sit and think back on how you could of made things so much better but that didnt happen.. ya regret the biggest mistake ya ever made well i know i did i let him slip away.. it was my fault.. and everything in my life is.. well everything that means anything...i guess i better go im not feelin too well as you see...

Cort..

Far Away - Nickelback

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

I love you
I've loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

I love you
I've loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

So far away
(So far away)
Been far away for far too long
So far away
(So far away)
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you any more
Believe it
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing, 'cause i'm not leaving you any more
Believe it
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and never let me go

Life aint no bowl of candy..

Hey*

2006-01-28T21:37:45Z

Im bored So I thought I would do this*

1. Reply with your name and I will write something random about you.
2. I will then tell you what song reminds me of you.
3. I will tell you a movie we should see together.
4. I will say something that only makes sense to you and me, if I can.
5. I will tell you my Best memory of you.
6. I will tell you what color you remind me of.
7. I'll then ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your LJ.

Love ya lots*

Cort*

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